can you tell if I had a bad day?

gawd..I feel like jumping over a cliff right now. I feel so unimportant and unloved. I feel like throwing up half of the things I just ate. I'm that sick. I wish for once life would be stress free. Maybe that'll happen when I get over that certain hill, a very big hill that is. I feel like doing something that I never thought I would do just to forget what I'm feeling right now. I feel like I need to getaway and escape evry single detail that I'm accustomed to right now. I feel like I need a break. I feel like driving in the PCH at dusk. God, how I miss that. I miss being to be able to just bum around and not do anything or think about anything. I miss smiling like there's no tomorrow, but there is and sadly I have to face it. I just got a little something right now and you know what I think, it's BS! bullshit. Evrything you say to me right now is just pure fabrication of who you really are, and you could just screw yourself asshole.Sorry for this totally negative and angry blog. I just really had to vent, hope whoever is reading this will understand.

my goodness...

Wow, for a second I can finally breathe. The preliminary tests for the 2nd semester is over, but sadly I'm not really satisfied with my performance. grr..I just have to cross my fingers and hope that everything works out for the best.

Damn, debut blues is getting me. I've been running around frantically to just really make this big thingy happen. I'm really hoping that everything will turn out for the best.

My head freakin' hurts. I need to sleep. or maybe just read GG. bwahaha! I love that book.

sorry for the really meaningless entry. Before this, I knew that I had a lot to say but nothing won't come out. Maybe, I'm just not in the right state of mind.till next time.. ciao bellas!